It's October- at the end of this month last year my mom found out about my dad's affair and about 2 weeks later-November 6th, my dad told me and Tay they were getting a divorce. I was working as an aide at Elkhart and living at home. I was still a virgin.
October 8, 2011 looks a little different:
I am now a Kindergarten teacher at Elkhart
I am still living at home, but now Erin lives here too (sharing a room and everything)
I am no longer a virgin and have had more than 1 pregnancy scare this past year.
I am still struggling hard with the divorce- we all are.
This week was hard as far as things with my dad go, and it really made me realize how much I hate what happened. I hate divorce. It ruins people's lives. God HAS healed me a little, and I know He will continue, but it still sucks so much.
This is absolutely my favorite time of the year- Fall, Thanksgiving, Christmas- all times with family and friends. I know these holidays arent the first ones without my dad, but I think they may be harder than last year. I expect my dad to expect us to spend them with Laura, and I don't know if I can do that. I don't like that it will be tough- I want things to be easy this time of year.
I am also struggling with going into the holidays single. It's such a lovely dovey time, and I want that so much. I struggle with how I feel about Clif. I know I should probably forget it, but sometimes I think I may love the boy and it scares.me.so.much.
A lot of thoughts and questions lately.
It's crazy how different life can be in a year...
Saturday, October 8, 2011
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