Still Spinning...

I still fill like a basket case. If I am totally honest-I am scared. I know God's plan is perfect, but I am terrified that I have not found a teaching position yet. So many people are trying to be nice and encouraging by asking me "Have you found anything yet?" "Oh you will! People would be crazy not to hire you!" Well....I guess everyone is crazy because I have not even had an interview. It's really starting to get to me...alot. My family is being really supportive but I can tell they are worried, too. I feel like screaming right now-LOUDLY!

WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO BE????

This summer has been good-lots of spending time with kids I love and family. Really enjoying being at home but wondering if this is where I am supposed to be in the fall.

Thats the thing-I don't want this to be about me-I know its not supposed to be and I don't want it to be. I want to serve God more than anything. I want to know that I am doing all I can to glorify Him where I am. Even if thats at home or even if thats somewhere living by myself. I am ready to venture out because I know He has my back.

Just some rambling for today :)

Howdy

So..I have never been a writer, journaler, or any kind of person who writes down what they are thinking. BUT...lately so many things have been running through my mind that I needed a place to "store" it all and get it out. The thought of writing it on paper didn't really seem appealing so I thought I jump on the blogging train!

I just graduated from Texas A&M (Whoop!) Right now I feel like a basket case. I am confused. I am worried. I am excited. I am scared. I am ready. I am trying desperately to seek God and where he wants me to be in the fall. I have NO CLUE where that is. I know my Lord is teaching me patience, but honestly I have never been good with being patient. I am excited for summer and for relaxing, but lately I have felt that I am wasting my time. I don't really know how to explain this feeling-I just feel like I should be doing more for God. Is this mission work or just spending more time with him? I don't know.

I really don't know what to write. Really. I feel like my mind is spinning, but I don't know how to put my thoughts into words. I need to pray. I need to sit at the feet of God and listen. I need to slow down in my "busy" life of nothing and focus on Him.